Im 17 years old, My name is Anisa Khan. My farther has recently passed away after i prayed and prayed towards God, but he ignored them. God made my life horrible and painfull which i hate. I have witnessed my farther die right in front of my eyes. I cannot beleive God had done this I never made many sins i used to be really good and proud of being a muslim. But one thing on my dads Jannazah my whole family kept saying "Allah Ne Marzi" I thought yes its Gods fault if it wasn't for him I'd still have a dad & scince then ive been having doubt on the existence of God.
I'm really sorry for your loss. I do know what it feels like and I also recognise the anger that you feel with God.
If there is an all-knowing and all-powerful God then we are all quite justified in feeling angry with him for making us suffer, since this is all part of an all powerful and all-knowing God's divine plan - and to put his creatures through such terrible pain and disaster without giving them any good reason for it is surely very cruel.
Although Oz is right that suffering and pain in itself is not a particularly good argument against religion - Unlike Oz - I believe it highlights a question that religion
does not have an adequate answer.
When billions of human beings are forced to suffer terrible pain and tragedy - children drowned in Tsunamis, mothers crushed in Earthquakes, babies born with genetical defects and loved ones snatched through illness and disease - and then say
"It's OK, I needed to test you - and I will give you a really happy life in the next life." - Is just not good enough!
If you force someone to endure the unendurable and bear the unbearable - and then say to them
"I have a very good reason, but I can't tell you yet!" - that is unacceptable. No amount of divine reward can make up for the losses and cruel tragedies one has been forced to suffer in this world. And the thought that God might somehow erase those memories or somehow compensate by bringing loved ones back to us - doesn't cut it in my book.
For me, suffering poses a big question about God - and a very valid one!
Topic: I think it is time for me to leave Islam