I had pure intentions, checked them all the time. I rarely commited any minor sins. Never ever any major. Always repented and stayed away from those sins I had once commited. Spent hours and hours upon praying, doing nawafil and good deeds, reading the Quran, just being a good human being and Muslim. I made a lot of du'a, and I concentrated on some particularly important stuff. Ya Rabb, please give me a rightous husband to build a good Muslim family, Ya Rahman open up the hearts of my family, and Ya Allah, love the child in my womb and make it loved by all people in the world.
Well, my husband was a piece of shit even compared to Muslim standards. Put on a front of being devout, and I trusted the people who arranged the marriage. Not only was he a lousy Muslim, he did everything to discourage my Quran memorization and seeking of knowledge because of his own jealousy and complexes. My family did open up their hearts in a sense, when I left my husband they supported me
and as for my kid, she's an amazing person who everyone loves. But she also thinks religion is shit and people who believe in god are delusional.
But I guess Allah ta'ala had knowledge of me leaving Islam, so he just went "fuck it, not gonna waste my time on her. It's bad investment".