My first Ramadhan as a Murtad has happened quite well if I may say so. I have felt frustrated over the futility of this task because of the rest of the family keeping it, but I haven't missed any (though I did wank a few times in the shower when the sun was out
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). I haven't eaten or drank during the Fasting period of the day. I am just doing this to deflect attention off me and my family given how people complained to my mother about my conduct
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The most funniest aspect, while I am keeping fast, some relatives with whom we are currently sharing our family house with have stopped fasting since last week saying they cant stand it because of school etc
![Cheesy](https://www.councilofexmuslims.com/Smileys/custom/cheesy.gif)
and they were the first to tell tale on me for being an Atheist.
![Roll Eyes](https://www.councilofexmuslims.com/Smileys/custom/rolleyes.gif)
All in all, I personally dont care since I am doing this just to avoid attention and waiting to just leave home and family and start my own life my way far away. Then I will state frankly to my mother, now I am not bullshitting anyone now so please let me be and dont discuss religious things with me, nor discuss me with others ever again.
I hope I get that day soon as I am sick of living here and living in Pakistan.